Humbled to the Dust.

Sometimes I entertain arrogance when I think about all the stuff that I don’t buy, or don’t go do. When I think about how my parents live as opposed to so many other church members who do things like drive huge cars for no reason, and live in wealthy neighborhoods. I think I am better for wanting to go to every empoverished nation that I can while they stay at home and fight “lesser” battles. This always-always-yields a face-palm moment. A “Seriously?” moment. I am so wrong. Everyone fights battles, and most are battles that I can’t begin to understand. As for my desire to travel, when I think about it, what am I actually going to give those people? I want to help them, but even more than that I want to see different places. I want to smell different smells, and I want to be free from the shackles of materialism. It’s easier to fight the temptations that I normally struggle with out there. So many things appeal to me out there for no reason other than, they suit me. I embrace the cultural differences. I like the pulsing lifebeat. I enjoy sand and revel in bright sun. It’s my personality and I need to be sure that I am trying to do more than just  feed my desires. See, I am no better than all the people that I so wrongly judge. I do what I can to satiate my desires, and so often leave God as an afterthought while taking credit for going to great lengths to expand His kingdom.

 Time and again He shows me how simple and foolish I am, time and again He shows me His love.

One thought on “Humbled to the Dust.

  1. Discontentment takes many forms. If we have little, we are discontented and want more. If we have much, no matter how much, we are discontented and want more. And more. And even more. We may also be discontened with who we are. “I don’t want to be me. I want to be you.” We are all discontented with something. It’s our nature. It is also our nature to see our neighbors faults but not our own. Recognizing that is a wonderful step in the right direction. But it is a long journey. Our motives are the most difficult areas of our hearts to discern because every motive we have is tainted with sin. What starts as a righteous motive, “I want to be a missionary”, may be nothing more than a ruse for “I want to travel”. Or worse yet, it is discontentment with where God has us. Yes, He does work through our desires. But that in no way means that every desire we have, even seemingly noble ones, have been placed in our hearts by Him. Be patient. Grow. Mature. Blossom like the beautiful flower you will surely become. Life is a marathon, not a sprint, and you have barely begun the race.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s