Much of my time is joy, is light
I won’t deny: there too is despair, there is night.
Though rare, there are times
When-a vine-angst climbs.
I am worried about going,
I am worried about throwing
All I have down a funnel,
Down a labyrinth tunnel.
Suddenly cigarettes and sex
Ashes blowing in my face, legs braced
Shine their neon lights, croon a hex
Put in reverse, the Highway to Hell now trace.
The road to Heaven: paved with negative emotions
Then they wash away: holy oceans.
By His breath, now I see
Often I choose death, though for life I am free.
Despite my natural tilt, He
Takes the wickedness away;
He soothes empty guilt, it won’t
Come into play.
He may not stop me
But he lets me decide:
Who will I be?
Which way will I ride?
I am not a romantic, but
Tears of my eyes against Him I can’t hide,
In the midst of my frantic He
Is there by my side.